While I have known the Arcane Universe for around a year now but my introduction came late because I did not know the existence of this topic and I am an introvert.
Starting off of how I am aware of the Arcane Universe, it was my Discord friend who introduced it to me after I am bored with Phantom Forces but I started with Arcane Reborn when it was in its barebone stage so the experience wasn’t great. However, I quickly found my favorite magic, shadow and it has sticked with me ever since. As we consumed more Arcane media, we eventually thought of original characters as soon as we started playing World of Magic. Sadly, it went no where because our philosophies were too different though both suffered from over-emphasising on something (me: the protagonist and magic; my Discord friend: masculinity)
With AA familiarity aside, it’s time to introduce who am I. I am a perfectionist though I have too many problems to even consider that perfectionism healthy. First of all, I have an self-esteem isse/inferiority complex as I have been devastated by my past mistakes and wondered if I could even fix it. In fact, i consider my Arcane OC to be a distraction from this issue. Secondly, it is trust issue which was a consequence after realizing how meaningless my academics have become (no ground for history and geography specialization, shocked by the teachers’ rejection of my hard work in literature, public school English does not determine your English ability to name a few) but i still dedicate to them because i believe i would have no purpose after abandoning them. Finally, I have become stagnated with no improvements in sight. With all of these problems, i wonder who am i really? Am i a great man in decline, a lazy edge lord or an Apollonian guy refused to do go through the hassle of being great? Only thing positive i can feel about myself is honesty but that doesn’t really matter after the decline in everything.
