I’m really sorry for you, I’ve never been permitted to any substances and im Muslim so I don’t know how that feels
I have a nice friend group online, but my family isn’t really helping with it (they just tell me to not be so harsh on myself and get over with it) and I don’t trust any of my irl friends so I suppose that helps :)) glad to hear btw
Writer. Genetics engineer. Artist. IT specialist. Mathematician. I don’t even know anymore man
I do like genes and biology but I also like art and writing especially so ahah
In regards to your last point if I’m understanding it correctly, I was tasked with writing a list of my top 5 dream jobs in school today (I put accountant, games designer, data analyst, sound engineer, psychiatrist for anyone who’s curious which is probably no one) so maybe you could try doing something similar
okay I’ve been having gi tract issues since February what the fuck is going on ;-;
I’m not eating anything particularly bad, I don’t remember the last time I touched junk food why tf isn’t it going away
Is it normal to feel like being expressive is nothing but a detriment? In the rare chance that I’m visibly happy, people start looking at me weirdly. If I’m visibly upset (or, more accurately, people notice my Resting Bitchy Face), people start asking what’s wrong, which feels super invasive. If people know I’m pissed off (which I spend most of my day trying to mask), people start acting like I’m the reincarnation of Henry Kissinger. If I constantly act stoic, people actually treat me normally.
okay so I’m in my machine herald arc (nosebleeds, intense fever, coughing blood, limping from fatigue, unable to breathe correctly) so I wish I could reply but it hurts to look at a screen so I’m taking the pain and saying this:
If people want you to not be you, they are not your friends.
If people want you to not be you, they are not people you should hold in high regard. They are not your friends or allies, even if they sometimes can be. They are a burden.
You deserve to be yourself without judgement. As long as no one is hurt.
I relate to this too - people are chill with everyone showing their outrage but when I do it, it’s now everyone’s business apparently. It’s also often people I despise
I would like to add I am coughing blood so I am sorry but for the next while I may not be active, I need to rest (and become a Machine Herald for the Glorious Evolution)
Once again, I am sorry, but I need my bedrest, and I hope you all can understand. I wish I could help right now, I really do. I just… can’t because of my body.
