Gamehero I goddamn love you, I’m naming gamehero my deputy for whenever I’m gone doing whatever (in this case, almost going to the ER, and yes, I am fine, it was just a private matter.)
Something I did to try more feminine “vibes” was makeup, doing exercises to give me a slight curve, and HEAVY cardio (my wife is so sweet, she loves how I look no matter what, I don’t deserve this woman.)
But, yeah, there’s no NEED to get a certain appearance. Dress how you want, as long as its appropriate, and love your body, because you are something beautiful to me.
Also, to those who keep apologizing for what I dealt with, thank you, but trust me, the “I feel sympathy for you” thing doesn’t make it better - I’m not something to be stared at, I tell my trauma because it means that I know the signs of a bad person, of someone who is a danger. I am wise, call me Gandalf the way I be guiding these fools 
but fr, thank you all, I am fine though. You all mostly know that I basically wear my trauma as a badge of “I may be immortal, because I’ve somehow NOT died despite it all” (well I did for a few seconds as a newborn but that’s beside the point)
But yeah, Gamehero, youre my second in command, also, MY GOD is this topic long 