Things have been rough with my emotions as college gets near, and my paranoia started to get even worse with how I started to avoid everyone as I felt they wanted to murder me.
And before you say “Go to therapy” I have. But all I got is the same bullshit of “You’re doing bad things, you must fix your way” and never give me a way to fix it or what is wrong with me, wasting $60 on the run.
sorry for asking this on this forum, I just sort of need some words from those mentally well (my friends aren’t that better than me)
also Reddit is blocked in my country, so stfu when you told me to post this on reddit
Even though this doesn’t help but I just wanted to point this out
I feel the exact same way or I got the feeling I am surrounded by criminals in this high school
For me what gets me at the better though is just doing a same pattern I do without causing too much attention or I just stay with friends I have, without causing too much attention and just staying near people I trust, feel safe about.
But really I can’t do much about this so I just try to live with it as best as possible and trying to stay near those who make me feel safe. Usually making friends/acquaintances throughout other classes and such makes you feel safer
This can help in other various ways as well but yeah this is how I do cope with feeling unsafe in certain areas (Even though saying “make more friends” just feels too simple or just doesn’t feel like it’s enough energy but that’s how i feel safe)
(My highschool is horrifying if you are caught in any sort of drama)
It’s ok to step away from the cycle you’ve trapped yourself in once in a while to access where you’ve come. Go outside to a spot where you can feel at peace, like a local park or maybe on a dock and just sort out the tangled bundle of thoughts. I know this may sound easier said than done but all you have to do is just take the first step away from your current life to give you a wider view on your problems.
unfortunately, since I’m out of town, my parents are much more restrictive than being in my hometown, they believe I will get killed or something if I’m going around outside. Not to mention I always have to prepare for college and got them reminding me that college is near.
I’m sorry, i need a bit more clarification here. Is the place you’re at screwed up to the point that people will straight up murder you if you give them the wrong look, or have you been doing stuff that ticked people off to the point that you’re paranoid that they’re actually going to kill you?
Definitely seems like some sort of anxiety. I can see where you’re coming from, I kind of struggle with interacting with other people, specifically those who aren’t related by blood. I’m not even sure about what to say in this situation, I’d probably give off the wrong impression or advice and accidentally tick you or someone else off. But I might as well try and give it a shot.
My advice would be to avoid overthinking it. Unless you’ve actively and intentionally been doing something that ticked them off, most people aren’t going to be going after you.
The bad things aren’t really bad things imo, it’s just a natural reaction towards high stress situations. If you’re feeling scared in some situations, just take a deep breath and tell yourself to get it over with. If you’re stressed then try stretching or walking for a bit. It helps me out.
(sorry for the long response time, i had to think for a while about this one)
