This doesn’t mean you don’t possess very pessimistic qualities, as @Ellis2k06 intended to point out to you.
Having the forementioned shouldn’t be a complete indicator of someone’s happiness, your life is more than that small list and dissatisfaction is indefinitely present in some aspect.
I’m well aware that @Ellis2k06 did point out that your life must be rather miserable, but the fact that you feel the need to justify it shows to me that you’re rather insecure about how other people view your quality of life. You had no need to prove that your life isn’t miserable, yet you pride yourself on showing elsewise, if you’re so content with yourself and your own happiness you’d surely be able to grasp that there’s no need to flaunt it?
To which I inquire, why do you think Merlin’s existense feels pointless?