Inspired by this post.
I hate how hateful I was to myself, how hard I’m to do anything I do, and how I become an abusive person to me, it might sound stupid, but this is something I’ve been dealing with for a while since Covid started and seems to get worst and worst by time.
So I ask you how do you deal with yourself? sorry if I vented a bit, but my sanity starts to dwindle as my parent asked me if I had enough skills to enter a design and visual college degree.
i may or may not have commited self hate because i was a garbage pvper
but for this reason i mentioned above, i 1v1d random people
Whenever I make a mistake I generally try to process what exactly I did wrong, and then I try to understand why the thing I did was considered wrong, and then I just… learn from it and try my best to not repeat my mistakes.
Of course we’re all human and prone to error so whenever I mess up on something I always go easy on myself and accept failure, afterall, it is the best teacher in life, or something.
Whenever I do something dumb though I sometimes might go into denial but eventually I feel as if I manage to make up to any party I’ve offended and I try my best to be a better person in the future.
Overall whenever I do something bad or face adversity I just try to calm myself internally and process it from a rational standpoint to see the situation as it really is.
Unless I’m hungry or sleep deprived.
I’m not a very nice typ0 when I’m hungry or sleep deprived.
Idk also sometimes I feel like I can get too passionate about things that aren’t important and I feel bad about it but I don’t wanna get too personal lol.
I go on long walks alone and just have a “chat” with myself.
Usually it starts with trash talk like “Holy shift you dumb fork, lazy arse piece of shift that can’t even complete a basic arse college course looking ass”, then somehow ending up in a blunt motivating way like “I may be a lazy dumb fork but atleast I will complete this college course. Just you watch.”
Basically, admit your faults and change them.
Just keep your mind off of it.
Learn to accept yourself, admit your faults and grow to love and cherish your flawed person.
If that might seem hard I suggest you could also do some recreational activities that benefit you. Go to the gym, commit yourself to a diet, go out with people that you consider friends. As long as it makes you happy and isn’t destructive it could certainly help.
accepted my flaws, constantly try to change them, realize it’s just not you going through it, not care and chill with what I have
Alas, we ball
What is self-hate or self-good
I never had that before
however I hate myself for being an immature child still 
Awareness is key to self-improgement but uou must also realizs that such a thing is forever an ongoing process and everyone backpedals more than they realize
It’s not worth it to scold yourself for the little things so you may want to consider if something is worth getting upset over in the first place. That said, I personally am pretty susceptible to spirals of anger regardless of my awareness that I am overreacting and in that case then it would likely be better to acoid triggers altogether
As for behavioral stuff, again awareness is key and it helps you to make amends sooner rather than later.
Sleep
The 
to success & happiness in life is to be the biggest hater possible to everyone and constantly bring them down 
me: “im gonna sleep, hopefully i’ll feel better when i wake up”
nightmare and sleep paralysis: “bonjour”
Bold of you to assume I deal with self-hatred in a healthy manor, or even at all.
i’d probably work hard to remove that problem, i guess
for example: i slightly hate myself cuz i suck at AO pvp. i pvp a lot in AO.
I would say I’m now lost in ocean without hope of finding a land and is hating at myself for getting damned in the ocean
Have always really been a happy boy, and as such haven’t dealt with self hate all too much
SAME, I DO THIS ALMOST EVERY DAY
omg same!!!
except it me reminding myself of my mistakes ( and proceed to laugh at them )
I came to the realization that I didn’t want to hate anyone to be honest. I didn’t want to hold onto grudges, be petty, or get angry at anyone. What was the point of it? I’d just be miserable for who knows how long, may or may not even get to fulfill what I originally intended, then I’d have to learn to forgive or forget. So why bother with the whole being mad part and just skip to the part where you forgave or forgot? That’s pretty much what I planned to do but there was one problem. I hated myself. I was mad at myself. I loathed myself. If I wanted a peaceful life, one where I could easily maintain happiness, I had to let go of my own hatred.
So it was a choice I had to make. To let go of it and finally be happy, what I and any person deserve, or double down on my hate and push everyone out of my life; loathing this world and being in my own shell of misery until I ceased to exist. It was actually pretty hard since I couldn’t just let go of my own hatred like that. I couldn’t get over what I had done to people before, the scars on my body as a constant reminder of them. I still don’t know if I’ve forgiven myself for everything I’ve done but I’m working on it. I’m working on moving on though forgetting and forgiving just feels wrong but I know it’s right. I deserve happiness, you do too, everyone does. That realization made me want to move on, more or less.
Hopefully I explained it well. I can’t really articulate my thoughts or emotions too well on topics I’m passionate about; against my better wishes I always speak through a filter so that just hampers anything I wanna say. Probably something else I should work on.
But yeah tldr no one deserves to suffer, the only way to deal with this is to forget or forgive yourself for whatever you hate yourself for. Accept it and move on.
really hope I got this message across I don’t wanna present something fucked to ya 
start laughing insanely, like me
