- understanding that i’m pretty much an underachiever in a family full of overachievers, making me pretty much the epitome of a “black sheep”
- give drawing a try every day only to realise that i suck and that i’ll never get better since;
a. i’m unmotivated since my art isn’t good
and
b. i’m never gonna get good since i’m unmotivated - watching poorly made educational videos and laughing at the shitty jokes they make
- watching vines and being inspired to make animations around them only to realise that hobby #2 exists
- being both;
a. a self deprecating, cynical fuck who genuinely hates themself
and
b. a mega egotistical p.o.s who talks down to people
at the same time - realising that people only genuinely like me since i’m funny
and knowing that if i don’t keep my act up, people will forget about me. - and even if i’m funny, people will despise the funny side of me since they would think i was “annoying”. true story. i was bullied a lot in elementary school for that sole reason and it’s the primary reason why i tend to lash out in anger when something mildly inconvenient happens.
- constantly worrying that i’m either a sociopath or a psychopath. i usually enjoy killing small bugs, especially mosquitoes. as well as frying ants alive with a mosquito racket when i was really young