so recently I have been becoming more and more interested in the idea of becoming a content creator for a fun hobby for personal fulfillment but I have a few concerns about my past behaviors and immaturity on other forums and dumb stuff I said and did in the past.
i just wanna ask if like those bad things I did are going to be detrimental to me? I mean I made these mistakes a while ago and i don’t know if this will come back at me and cancel me or something (then again I am never using twitter …
so like when I’m at school, (im the new kid in my class), I don’t like sitting next to people at all, I get really like paranoid for some reason so I just tend to sit alone and keep to myself and draw, the issue is that so many people keep trying to talk to me, but I just freeze up and keep quiet, I don’t know if they think I’m weird or not (I mean the voices in my head say they hate me already) so like I don’t know how to tell people I don’t want any social interaction
what should I do to prev…
so a few days ago something happened and I don’t think I have ever felt so uncomfortable and scared in my life.
I was playing loomian legacy like usual when suddenly my mom came into my room and told me two girls I apparently talked to in the past a long time ago (but I don’t remember them at all) came and wanted to take me on a golf cart ride around the neighborhood.
this is when “it” kicked in.
I could already begin to feel a sudden shift from my normal silly sandal into something dreading …
there’s surprisingly a ton of posts of sandal ranting about irl life
(And no, this isn’t to harass, ostracize, or insult any related party or parties.)
(why did i make this post?)
Why do I share so many personal things about my life on here?
relax man, we all do.
Heck, I’ve dropped more rant bombs than I can even care to count.
understanding that i’m pretty much an underachiever in a family full of overachievers, making me pretty much the epitome of a “black sheep”
give drawing a try every day only to realise that i suck and that i’ll never get better since;
a. i’m unmotivated since my art isn’t good
and
b. i’m never gonna get good since i’m unmotivated…
Sometimes I think that the people I love deserve someone better than me
I love my parents and my sister to the ends of the solar system but I think I’m not good enough for them
I don’t fit in my own household in many ways.
My dad’s an oldest child
My mom’s an oldest child
My sister’s an oldest child
I’m a youngest.
Everyone in my family are incredibly smart and I’m scraping by
I still have to go to therapy for how bad my anxiety is, it’s comparable to that of a hamster’s.
All this emotional baggage I bring with me
My procrastination
They’ve never said anything but sometimes I think they’d be happier with someone else as a family member instead of me
When we’re down, it’s ok to burst out randomly and dump info at completely random times. It’s what makes us human, and that’s perfectly okay. If you’re uncomfortable talking to someone about it in person (like I often do), it’s totally fine if you do it here. I mean, not entirely the best place to do it, but since it’s at the very least an option, we’re better than a lot of other places.
So, don’t feel afraid to talk about your feelings if you really can’t take bottling it up anymore. We all have our moments.
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Flayire
December 14, 2022, 1:50am
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I’m getting the urge to say this.
This is a joke don’t take it seriously I feel ya
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gonna ask my crush if she wanna see the new avatar movie with me when it comes out tomorrow wish me luck
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Goodluck and rant on the forums if something goes wrong
why the fuck does this make me realize me and sandal are actually somewhat alike like jesus fuck, apart from the one where sandal is scared about bitches (I don’t feel any love anyways) we’re pretty alike.
of course I’m considering content creation since I’m definitely not capable of surviving in the current workforce
you’re gonna hate me for what I am about to say next, but for a very long time, I thought that was the dreamsexual flag
: O
poggers
heres a solution:
Go up to a girl tomorrow, and call them the first word of your quote above, they’ll be super happy to hear it!
this is truly an arcane odyssey